Thursday, March 29, 2007

As salam o alaikum Alisha

How are You? Well i want to say thank you for being my special teacher. Like the old saying goes "once a man, twice a child"
So now I guess its your turn to have patience with us old folks, like remember how I taught you how to read and write. May Allah bless you always.
Let me know whether you have received my e.mail.

Love Mum

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Honestly this makes my day- opening up g-mail seeing an e-mail from my "Mum"- I signed her up a g-mail account so I guess she knows how to use it correctly!

Under times of stress and pain your family will always be there.

Tuesday, March 27, 2007



reminds me of your beattle juice gloves! (don't take offence to the pic :P)

pow cha kawongggggg


"Thank you"

"omgawddddddddddddddddddddddddddd shattttt up!"

and when your telling him something sad:

him: "your going to be ok "(while clicking the keyboards for living daylights on msn) planning dynamoo hockey with his friends
and I know he's not paying attention ".

"can i have some advil my sinus is acting up".

"his black wannabe manish laugh"

and he thinks he's spider man.


HE KNOWS HOW TO COOK- WHILE TRYING TO BOIL NOODLES AND PLAY SOCCER AT ZEE SAME TIME- A GOOD POT OF PASTA GONE TO WASTE..TSK..TSK..TSK..!!

COMMENT SECTIONOOO IS OPEN HIT ME!

pa chakwongnggngngn ;)
we may not be together but at least we will be under the same sky.
i listen to tropical music in the morning. as i make up my bed.

Monday, March 26, 2007



Truth speaks in this picture.

I admire her.
mmm..... kinda feeling gloomey and i have an exam tomorrow.

kinda missing some things right now.
me: "Because love, life is too short."

once you found your fairy dust don't let it go-place it in a glass ball- and when days seem glum shake it around and be reminded- and smile.

:)

Sunday, March 25, 2007

I haven't had time for me these past days. I wasn't enough. We do and say things not because we want to but because we're forced to-blood is thicker than water. I've being following everything my parents have being "advising" me to do these past days and AlamdiouAllah my life seems so much easier to breathe and grasp I feel at pure contempt happiness of relief and satisfaction- I'm not second guessing what their saying I'm not being rebellious and showing that liberated teenage side of lashing out- I'm just following their advice- the whole thing this time not parts of it.

everyone is moving on with their life- no more of those "teenage days" we have all seemed to find our true calling after some trail of errors. Sitting by the window with the breeze coming in- the sun dipping low- hearing the kids laughing outside, the dogs barking, the sound of the car starting- the sounds of the rollerblading whizzing by- that salty smelly to the cool spring breeze- the softness of my skin after a cool shower- strands of my hair dancing with my eyes-just down the street lives magic- the year has gone by so fast and I have this sad ache within me that I've missed out on the true people I love on where they are in their lives right now- what certain excitement and sadness has befouled at their feet- how do you get back stolen time- stolen time that was taken because of misunderstandings piled and piled to accumulate to the creation of two tools in our hearts- the two tools of a mans heart "love" and "hait" how did it get to that?



if people love you- they will understand you. To love is to trust, to love is to understand.

Saturday, March 24, 2007




Nas wants to see it because "it has blood in it" hopefully it will be good :).


Whenever me and my family go to the movies we're always the first ones in the cinema room- figures since we're always on time lol.anyhoo my dad scopes the place for "hidden goodies" last time we found a guess wallet loaded with bills and a nice celly-I and my family were trying to decide "give it to security" the secutiry woman that yelled me OR give it to the "police" so we settled on handing it over to the police- it so happened that the this girl runs in frantically (we kinda figured it was her) we asked her if she lost something and said "yes my nice guess purse" we gave it to her and she "thanked" as a billion times- hey folks it's the common human thing to do righto :)- I turned to dad he had his chest puffed up with this big huge egotistic smile on his face like superman- I told him to wipe it off- he felt happy that he made someone else happy.

so the moral of this- scope out the theatres you can find good stuff and return it to rightful owners-and being on time for the movies means you get good seats and you get to see all the action unfold has the people walk in for the movie- atleast you know whose sitting next to you before you watch the movie- don't you find it creepy that your sitting in darkness with like two hundred sum people eh? ehhh!!!

g'day assignments await.







any takers?????


Once I get to see the mountains in the summer I'm a happy go-lucky gal :)

can't wait....

Thursday, March 22, 2007

It's being so long

I forgot how your voice sounds.
how your face looks
loving someone doesn't mean the "kisses" & "hugs" and random text messages
loving someone means that their inner lingers around in your thoughts from the moment you wake up to the moment you lay down in bed- when your talking to someone, when your taken the bus, when you hear a song, when you see something in the stores, when you see a book, when you see something or hear or smell of something that reminds you of them.
it's being so long that conversations I would like to have with you seem so impossible and I miss so dearly so much hearing your voice.


I miss your smile.
So..so I feel drained from school I'm tired of following my "to-do list"-

I'm sitting here blogging away when really I should be doing assignments..

I'm tired ..

blahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

:(

Tuesday, March 20, 2007




Character is like a tree and reputation like its shadow. The shadow is what we think of it; the tree is the real thing.

~Abrham. L

Monday, March 19, 2007
















k- enough dreaming woman






I just finished a whack of home work and do I ever feel good :)

This week is going to be a rough week but hey gals and tals I'm going to push through it with a smile and some patience and faith in Allah (swt)

Schoo is almost done :) Horray! That's the first thought that entered into my mind this morning- wow the school year went FAST- seems like the years are going by faster and faster- hold onto the reins my love.



:)

Sunday, March 18, 2007

I've come to believe that each of us has a personal calling that's as unique as a fingerprint - and that the best way to succeed is to discover what you love and then find a way to offer it to others in the form of service, working hard, and also allowing the energy of the universe to lead you.

~Oprah Winfrey

Saturday, March 17, 2007

I come home in the morning light
My mother says when you gonna live your life right
Oh mother dear we're not the fortunate ones
And girls they want to have fun
Oh girls just want to have fun

The phone rings in the middle of the night
My father yells what you gonna do with your life
Oh daddy dear you know you're still number one
But girls they want to have fun
Oh girls just want to have

That's all they really want
Some fun
When the working day is done
Girls - they want to have fun
Oh girls just want to have fun

Some boys take a beautiful girl
And hide her away from the rest of the world
I want to be the one to walk in the sun
Oh girls they want to have fun
Oh girls just want to have

That's all they really want
Some fun
When the working day is done
Girls - they want to have fun
Oh girls just want to have fun,
They want to have fun,
They want to have fun...

dl the song the beat it 80's/ techno- but it's kickn ladies :P


I'm still bang on getting a tree house-mama never let me get one because she said i was too heavy "hefty" i think their exciting and mysterious i feel like i'm character from a story book when i'm up in a tree house.

maybe me and futrisistic hubby can hitch it to something like this for a while- but then again we have to deal with the issues of birds.

days to come -InshAllah.

Friday, March 16, 2007



i'm a big dreamer has my mom puts it.

dad says i said something for once that made sense- and he was touched.

this time i'm following what my heart first told me.

i have grown to see that i have this strength- of not loosing "hope" a strength that know one can break.

i walked around down town this morning the morning air was just nice- sometimes ones thoughts accumulate to be too much and you need that time to just sit. think. and have conversation in silence.

i understand why people keep to themselves..oh how i do.

i miss listening to the oldies my dad use to play as we would drive to banff.

i miss the smell of a hotel room.

i miss my grandma's soft cheeks.

Thursday, March 15, 2007

i've being holding my breath for a long time.

exhale.

5,4,3,2,1 capow!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Wednesday, March 14, 2007

i dreamt you so clearly- and it felt real- and you offered once more- and i shook my head saying no.

Tuesday, March 13, 2007

faciliating a round table discussion is hard- but it's how you prep your self mentally and how you market yourself- i'm realizing the truth in the statemnent of "it's a dog eat dog world out there" as the lawyer put it- he told me face to face he's cheated and smite a little in the business and i smiled and respected him for that- for being honest- i then replied yeh you must cheat to get somewhere but it's how you "cheat" - if you must cheat do it "truthfully'- and it boils down to the intentions of your cheating "how harsh do you mean it" or do you have have some common goodness in it when your cheating- but forecfully you must do it to get to that focal point of success?

talked to a friend of "flipping houses" she told me if she had $100,00.00 what she would do- and damn she's a smart woman- i told her you need money to get your rear anywhere- theres so many dreams floating within me now- i'm eager to get out there and do battle.

i hait wearing business suits and knowing which fork is for which and has anyone ever eaten a few strands of salad in a champagne glass? lol i made a comment to the lawyer- how do we eat this? hands? forks? what? i laughed to myself and without knowing said "let's bust this down" everyone laughed- and i stared at the smiling faces looking at me- i thought to myself after "mmm maybe i shouldn't have said BUST" but you know what life is too short to talk to dollars, and strategies and which country you've being too- and how the market is going- and what's the next hot business conference to go too- and which economic text is hot.

meh- i'm just for the mangos :)

g'day loves.


i miss something.

Monday, March 12, 2007

i don't care anymore- there comes a time in one's life when you just don't care anymore. and damn does that ever feel good.

once i have my faith in Allah that's all i need.
I woke up this past sunday- it was 10 am in the morning and dad cooked some what of a breakfast that looked like a meal :) I went running- took keys, celly, and debit card- finished my run thought to myself why not cut my hair "just a trim" walked into the salon- got it "TRIMMED" straightened and vola looked nice.. kept i straight yesteryday and today I dunoo I can't maintain straight hair it' just all over the place- anyoo I washed it because my dad kept nagging at me he said "he likes me with curly hair" so I washed it- got out of the shower -tilted my head and looked at myself in the mirrow and screamed.. my hair is so short.. it looks like a muff rat fro :(- I miss my long hair :(..... why!?!?! did I trim it..oh!WHY! it was at it's best....I should have just kept my dead hair.. :(

:( my hair is SHORT !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!screams

Sunday, March 11, 2007

Saturday, March 10, 2007




All praise to Allah (swt) the Al-Ikwhan Youth Centre is done:

Saturday March.10th marks it's time.

Everything always happens around nas b-day grandma's passing and the reality of a passionate dream has unfolded this evening "spring is the vitality of birth". I never knew what Al-Ikwhan meant- until over a period of time I felt it within me- that's what defines Al-Ikwhan.

I walked into the blue room lastnight- scurrying of souls to complete it- I felt touched and wanted to hug them- the love that was within me- I haven't felt for some time- it was blue a bright blue and the first thought that hit my mind was that my children and my friend's children will carry on the legacy.

We all silently laughed amongst our selves when we were thinking which young child could do a task for us- a easy cute task that made them feel like superman or superwoman and we all said under our breath with this shocking reality "we're all grown up" have we outlived our youth- the answer is no. Among our hearts the ones that laugh the ones that seek knowledge that ones that honor experiences- that's youth "vitality"- be naive but do it beautiful- speak truth with volumes of justice- make mistakes but be noble.

We are souls living together- appreciate each others time and effort- learn to forgive but never forget- learn to heal open wounds and move on- move on for we are promised life so seize it- we are the most transulent lotus always bloosimg. Our Ummah ...Our Ummah- before judgment day can come.. We must unite to do things in a orderly, time, respectful, honest, manner.

Say words but mean it- and apply action to it. Create something with your heart and allow it to flow to your hands to- construct.

passion has being lit in me again-

those that are ready for today are ready for tommorrow and the days left to come.
papa says this is alisha's vocab:

"hellllzzz no!!!!"

"peace outttt!"

yeh papa's got me down path ;)


i and my family went out for dinner tonight- just stared and admired my parents that's the kinda love i want- that's eternal love- words can't explain it for only their heart's understand- for only two lover's can look at their significant other without motion or words- but search deep into their eyes- and they can read a story of a life time with what their saying.

books, shows, conversations, can not amount to explain what we want for only our hearts.

follow with what your heart first told you
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Friday, March 09, 2007

i need sihamo and sahehairrr the mary

:(

Wednesday, March 07, 2007

Salam girls hope you are all doing well,

I'm just writing you this e-mail to let you know that we have enough girls to register a team. Thankfully. So i am going to go ahead and register our team inshallah. Just to let you know, that we have too many girls, so after march 15 its going to be first come first serve. As soon as you get in your fee's, your id card and your picture you will be guaranteed to play. We can only register 21 girls, so in any cases of the players absence those of you who missed the deadline (march 15) are more than welcome to take their place and join with a fee of about 25$ only. If you do not make the deadline, you are more than welcome to also join us during our practices and watch our games.
So please if you can really work on getting in your requirements, I would really appreciate it.

Love you all,
Hadika

p.s Amereen, please check the list of e-mails, and if i missed anyone please forward this to them! Thanks luv yaa
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These sisters are going to be awesome woman for the future ummah :)
91% damn right baby!

let the games begin- i want more- give me more!

rawararararara :P

Monday, March 05, 2007

my mom makes the best food ever *sigh*

:)

Sunday, March 04, 2007

i feel like i'm being punished.
when i smile at someone i wish they would smile back.
why is everyone holding back.


i want a change of scenery let's go on a safari- anyone?

Saturday, March 03, 2007

i wake up every morning at 5:30am.
when noon comes around i can hardly have a decent conversation without zoning out.
my eyes are half closed but i'm still searching.
sometimes i feel that i'm loosing in this game.
just a glimmer of faith and hope "could it be?"
i could be writing a mid-term and half of my mind is on the exam and the other half lost and trapped in another world.
i physically pointed to my head and told my friend this is how my mind is right now.
the right side is with school/extra things/ the middle is my emotions my vague sense of how lost i feel, the left is family,friends.
nothing comes by my path as a shock or a suprise anymore.
i have lost that touch.
i wish i could have times of lastyear- i was real then it was me.
i feel like i'm on stage.
sometimes i feel like f'en it.
sometimes i want to shout out and throw my books around and tell the world i don't give a hoot anymore about anyone.
bring me to a lonely castle and let me be..atleast i wouldn't be looked down upon.
theirs this quote that mark twain says those that make you feel great are special people and those that make you feel small are not worth it- those are not the exact words but still..

i don't crave, i don't run, i've lost that one thing that made me beat.

friendships have being lost and broken- words said from before are nothing but bare dust blown back into the wind- lost forever my friend.

so much has occured that i don't know where to look or how to care and to feel.

that person that you need the most is not there.
so many times i want to break down and just for those arms to hold you would be nice.
then again i'm cluttered with emotions up to my neck that i don't care to cry i'm sick of feeling like this, i'm sick of giving... i'm sick of showing me.. this is bloody flipping "me".


i'm so tired, that i don't care to "care", i'm so tired of it all- i'm fed up.

sometimes i feel like i'm under water and someone is holding onto my feet dragging me down under- my heart beats to fast- and it feels like i'm slowly shutting down.

reality is altering.
someone give me a bucket of chocolate mint ice-cream..and leave me be

nothing is getting done tonight.
Salam girls, Just a quick update on soccer.

So far we have about 13 girls who have officially confirmed, and if you have not yet, please do as soon as possible, I need to know by March 10. We need about 20 girls! Call me as soon as possible! Before march 10!

Also registration starts March 10 - 15. There will be registration at the Al-Ikwahn Youth Centre Open house on Saturday and Sunday march 10 (6-9p.m.) and March 11 (12-6p.m.). The address is 3442 93rd street. Other than that, we will arrange another time for registration before the 15th. There will be a registration fee of 100$, since it is our first time joining a league. If there's any trouble with that, we don't want it to stop you from joining the team, please contact me at 289 0789 or 433 6180 and we can figure something out, like i said fundraising will help.

Im going to need couple things form you girls to bring on Monday please.

a) your school id or any kind of id with ur name, picture and age on it
b) a passport sized photo

If you can bring those to me on monday march 5, and i can quickly photocopy them during lunch and give it back right away. please do not forget! this is very important and will save us allot of time!

As for the rest who do not go to my school I will give you a call you and arrange a convenient time as soon as possible.

Thank you very much! Inshallah this works out, because if it does it will be a blast! I just need al of your cooperation so it can be much easier and more fun!

Sheena if you can please forward this to Iman, because i do not have her e-mail or any other girls that you know are for sure
inerested!

Jazakallah

Salam,
Hadika
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Just keeping the rest of you sister's posted that are not on the e-mail contact list..
:)

Hadika is my passion fruit.

Friday, March 02, 2007

being by yourself is bliss.

I sat at grant today in the lobby watching the paintings and posters with the sun on my face most gorgeous feeling i've felt, the sun on my face.

Had good conversation with a friend.

Went to Jummah at Grant..it was cute reminded me of highschool all over again.

I'm so truthfully happy.

AlamdiouAllah.

Thursday, March 01, 2007




I'm going to buy a stuff cat off of Ebay and chuk it into a *CERTAIN someone's face* as they led me into my death trap this morning "turkey size pigeons" I don't know what I did to deserve it :(