being here is bliss.......will continue later.

......waiting                            .?

You know what feels good? Knowing this is YOUR life now. I look back to three years ago- There have been so many experiences I have gone through that I'm so thankful for-AlamdiouAllah. I know where I'm heading.

AlamdiouAllah I haven't felt a pain of sadness for so long- I know sometimes in my blog it may seem that I feel sad or discontent but I'm not- truly. As funny as that sounds. I have grown so much- and I thank myself for being true to me and the love ones that surround me. 

My friend asked me if I'm ready to have a child and without hesitation I said "yes" what makes me not ready and so ready in five years- my theory is:once you have health and strength what's holding you back? Yeh you need alot of money but once you have that passion, and strength- what is there to wait back for?

I leave for Toronto in three days- with my two best friends "my sister- Naseeba and Saher" for RIS. InshAllah. This trip and the conversations yet to come have being way over due.

I wish everyone Eid Mubarak and a happy new year. All the best to where ever life leads you.

love,

alisha

leaving for Toronto in a week.

listening to Dido "Don't leave home"

watched note book on tv lastnight (didn't cry this time)

going shopping with mama.

happy= AlamdiouAllah.

and done finals!

I feel paranoid more and more these days... do you ever have those moments when you say the most retarded things ever....and after you say it your thinking to yourself "Did I just actually say that"- OUT LOUD?!?!?!?

I'm going to wear rubberbands around my wrist so I can snap myself if I get myself some how tangled up in a nitty gritty conversation- that's what happened today just to stay out of gossip.. I just smiled and said "oh gotta go to the bathroom real bad!" the person just looked at me... with a puzzled look on their face- next time I'm going to say plain out straight "Don't want to hear it"-

Do you also find you can be so nice to someone... you can go over and beyond- and yet you don't receive any common decency or respect back from them- and you think your the one with the fingerprints on the weapon?

What happened to people smiling... patience... you hardly see someone smiling..these days- if you do see someone smiling you complement them.... back in the day it was the norm to smile... people worked so hard back in the day.. but yet they always had the energy to smile......

we've become so domain ed to our life.... what happened?

I just want to live by the ocean... in a nice beach house- with the tea kettle whistling on the stove.- 

Sundays are my favorite because I take napps in mama's bed and that's when I feel secured and reassured.

g'night.....

note to self:

THINK ALISHA BEFORE PRESSING THE "PUBLISH POST" BUTTON...i'm mortified right now of the things I wrote... and published to the public.....mneh according to my sister I have to make someone laugh....

I'm firm in not deleting posts that are dramatic and out of the norm.. because as I read them now in this present time it makes me realize that I have grown from that time... and that's what the soul needs to realize in their daily reflection.

I'm officially addicted to Dido listening to "Here with me" and Cold play.

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Mom and Papa crack me up: When I looked at them at the dinner table today as they were chatting/arguing on what time i was born and how much I weighed... and my father was trying to prove a point in stating that my mother's water never broke my mom snapped her fingers in the air (like no you didn't) she said "mister I think I know my body and can remember clearly if my water broke"- this rant when onto to my sister joining in- in which mom and nas were ganging up against dad... I was just smiling-

good times... and so now I go to bed.....

g'night.

So I write tonight--- I don't know that having naseeba's laptop curled up in my bed with my lights dimmed in my room-listening to Enrique "Do you know"-makes the setting and my mood so right.. I guess so.

I haven't typed for so long- so many thoughts and events have occurred to me in this state of life. How do I begin? I feel more settling with myself..I know how every word and feeling is going to play out that lingers in this head of mine..I guess what I'm saying to myself is that I have accepted faith.

My cooking classes are coming together well...I'm teaching mama computers she's teaching me how to cook..tit for a hat.? right that's how it's quoted.

Today was eventful.... I've noticed that I can wake up thinking today is just a normal day but there's always a little hint of excitement there is always something to learn from.. a lesson to be learned... a person to meet.... a conclusion of my thoughts- AlamdiouAllah I love it.

I'm not making much sense with this blog..so therefore I will go and read thy book....

g'night.

life is way too short and beautiful...for your thoughts, dreams to be contained within.

if you have to do something do it. what is there to loose? BUT there is something to gain.

i love where i am.