Monday, August 27, 2007

where do I go from here.

All I feel is regret. I've lost my hold. I've lost the fairydust.

To love is to understand. Why can't people simply reasonably understand. Why do people have to be difficult. Why? Why?

Life is just life. But eternal life will be sweeter..Khair InshAllah.

All I can say is you learn from your mistakes. I realised my mistakes..but in fear of the consequences. All of the advise and wise tale stories that people have told me-I used to take heed to..and now I feel like I've rebelled and felt some happiness for 5 seconds but I'm realizing I'm going to be feeling regeret for another five years.

Friday, August 17, 2007

I and family went to the fringe tonight- was quite eventful.

Tomorrow we are off to Banff- I love the sight of the mountains - such a mysterious feeling starts to lurk in me.

i'm reading the kite runner- i'm going to go to the park and just lay there as the sun plays with my face and mountains embracing me.

I don't know what more to type- I feel empty.

Saturday, August 11, 2007

best moments of summer 2007:

going out for "girls night out" with Ashraf/Saher/Madia/Naseeba/Hadika/Naseeba.

all of us attending the 2007 FIFAU20 games *olay, olay!!*

going to street perfomers at churchill and just soaking our feet in the fountain.

crusing with ms. ashraf

going to the un youth assembly conference (meeting people that i will never forget)
trying to b-girl with Ashraf behind the curtains.

The crew smoking shesha at Madiahs house

Dancing to "Whyne up" by Elephant Man.

Planning Habibags engagement.

Planning camp.

Swinging off the rope into the pool.

Shopping with ash/saher/ mado/hado/ habiba/ naseeba in WEST ED for clothes (my feet hurt after)

Working at the law firm for four weeks and meeting saher for lunch!

Volunteering at the ceyc table at h-days.

Taking to les about girl problems on the hill over looking h-fest.

Running at night time as the air is still warm with a mist of heat.

Celebrating dad's 60th b-day in our back yard with the crew and familo.

Hearing great news that I get to drive the van!

Watching Harry Potter with a friend :)

Most of all Allah giving me health and strength to live another summer again.

This doesn't make sense- their just memories that have bounced in and out of my mind as I continue to walk my journey- more to come InshaAllah.

:) life is beautiful...

Wednesday, August 08, 2007

i can't be superwoman.

i need time for myself.

why is it hard for someone to understand you expecially when they say they love you.




blahhhhh

Tuesday, August 07, 2007

the most insane, funk thing to do is: crank on some salsa music and just go at it in your room.
and your mom is peeking through the door smiling grimmly (is that even a wURd) :P

ladies and gentz ms.alisha is officially charred by the sun by good old h-days- standing in 1 hr lines for a fried piece of bread with some sugar sprinkled on top to gain another 50 pounds to zee hips is the end result.

i need to buy a white board for my room so i can write down events/meetings- my head is full. i need time for myself.

i just finished brushing my teeth and i just gulped down some rice crispies with cold milk- why do i do things backwards?

I have no time to get a outfit for my friends *suprise* engagement partayy i'm very shocked at the fact that we could keep our mouths shut.

so i'm going to mentally break down my time line till the end of august- here goes :)

Meeting tomorrow evening @ 8pm after work.
Decorating at friends house for friends engagement party
Friday- Engagement party
Saturday- Cariwest/ in the evening watching Transformers with Saher
Sunday- clean and ORGANIZE my room?!?!?

Next week plan full fledge for camp-
Ceyc meeting next week- Wed
Week of Aug 16th-26th (crazy camp stuff)
Fringe at whyte.

It doesnt sound alot but it does when you work everyday and tie other stuff into it- Things must be looked at and worked at.

September- school :( And there you have it summer is done.

............................I need that massage gift certificate.

I havent listened to music for a LONG time.

K im going to bed.. This post is so msn/language style.

g'night loves :)

Saturday, August 04, 2007

summer of 2007 has being crazy. crazy.

what future awaits for me.

I breathe again. And I know I'm ready- I just know I'm ready.

I dreamt you last night- and you said these exact words "I...I will teach you" and you smiled and I smiled- the sad part is you already thought me.

Love is unbearring. Love is unconditional. What emotions were in me that were kept for so long- stagnant came out today on August 4th, 2007 at 5:30 pm. The future always lays unsettling in all of us. I would like to amend. I would like to complete.

Is this one of Alishas crazy loverish posts....well read more to find out.


:)- Khair InshAllah.