where do I go from here.

All I feel is regret. I've lost my hold. I've lost the fairydust.

To love is to understand. Why can't people simply reasonably understand. Why do people have to be difficult. Why? Why?

Life is just life. But eternal life will be sweeter..Khair InshAllah.

All I can say is you learn from your mistakes. I realised my mistakes..but in fear of the consequences. All of the advise and wise tale stories that people have told me-I used to take heed to..and now I feel like I've rebelled and felt some happiness for 5 seconds but I'm realizing I'm going to be feeling regeret for another five years.