Friday, May 18, 2007

whenever i'm walking around town i come up with so many things to write on this blog of mine- but nothing is conveyed better than over coffee with a friend..yeh? yeh.

how do i alisha najma shah begin to type what i would like to type. i feel that bits and parts of me are scattered every where.

breathe. pause. think. walk.

i have learned from my experiences and i will continue to master the art learning from my experiences.

my friend says i need a relationship i responded by saying "I'm Muslim :)"- but really c'mon fellow brothas and sistas we all have ties to someone of the opposite gender in terms of calling when we are faced with a hard day or just want to hear their voice how their doing- to laugh and smicker about things - we all have that significant other in the capacity of more than a brother or sister- but with the possibility of a strong, healthy relationship growing and going somewhere- but i have noticed with my friends that are in situations such as the above i explained of- when they truly, deeply love someone with all of their mind, body and soul- it never gets to stage "c" to the walking down the aisles and saying "i do"- all the count less phone calls, text messages that ran up your phone bill from $70 to $150 just because you talked to much to "Mohammad" or "Nadia" that following night with a final the next day in stats or English- but it was worth staying up for "THIS" -is nothing in the end.-

in the end that person is ruined "damaged" has formed a scarred image of "males" or "females" when casual talk does arise among their friends "so chapp when you getting hitched" or "baby-girl when you getting yah bling ca ching" that person usually says something along the lines of "guys.....are jerks- i'm done with em" or "girls.. their just too dramatic for me.. they have issues".

you know in the Quran it says " try to minimize your conversations with the opposite gender of yourself" (something along those lines) well Allah (swt) said that for a reason- so we wouldn't get damaged or hurt from "fake and bake halafied relationships- ... now think about it love, real hard- your either between the ages of 18-26 and your "?" on how and where do i begin to find a good brother or sister without getting hurt this time- what are the do's and don'tS- how do we not get hurt this time around- we usually think to ourselves "she is nothing compared to Nadia...and our love grows and deepens more within out hearts for our true first love ones- and you think to yourself- i screwed myself over BIG TIME- will i ever fall in love?

do i make sense..no because i have too many flipping grammatical errors..just make some sense out of it- comment section is open so state your spiel..

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I plan to finish this off- my hands just got cold.