there was this certain smell that made me go back to yesterydays.
i still remembered when i was a baby and i banged my head against the corner of the wall while drinking my bottle(because i heard the door bell rang and i got excited,i guess they are right the small things do amuze me) which carried four stitches.
i still have the marking.

in the Quran Allah(swt) states they are four things writtened on your forhead from the moment you were created and placed in your mothers womb:

1. When you will be born.
2. How you will die.
3. And where you will die.
4. And I think the forth one is "whome your companion will be "

I'm not sure.. when I was little I would try hard enough to look into the mirror and read those "4 things off the top of my head"... couldn't see it though.

I remember my yellow dress and my yello cardigan that my father bought for me. my first dress. InshAllah, I would love for my daughter to wear it. i put away for safe keeping.

sometimes do you think that the guy, standing across from you or sitting next to you, or miles and miles before you- will be the father of your child? But this strange thing tells you, when nothing of the sort amounts to that as you are standing across from him or sitting next to him, or dreaming your heart away as he's miles and miles before you?

Allah(swt) puts feelings in you for a reason, people ask "i want guidance, yet i don't feel guided" i ask them "what are you feeling RIGHT NOW" tell me and so they tell, then i ask them "those are feelings" Allah(swt) has inplaced them into you for a reason.. a good feeling or a bad feeling. sometimes it's a hard spinning tale to follow, but follow it.

i'm thinking of printing my blog out and binding it into a book, i'll give my future(hubby) it so he can read about the crunked, whacked woman he married. InshAllah.damn that's music to my ears.

i wish i had never erased my past posts, so foolish i was back then, still i'm but gaining a bit more every day aren't we girl.

saw my cousin today, he didn't recongize me "your a woman" was what he said. i was shy to hug him.

my hair is long, and the blackness is coming out- theres a hint of brown. no more hair coloring.

before i never would mount on the idea of children "me having children" i never had the need. well i don't have the need, but i think of it more and more everyday. young mothers with their cute little sons and daughters. i need to get push it out by 25. imm not making children at the age of 30..peace out..why? so i can lose the tire.. InshAllah, i can make em from the age of 22(yeh right) to 26" then finacto..
but then again i'm still going to be singling and mingling at age 22 :)...

that's life..as more and more people are telling me "life is life" :P

k... g'night loves.