i'm happy. i'm happy. satisfaction has bein served. i'm mixed with a moment of sadness of charred sadness. memories from the past have now becomed stained memories.

isn't it funny, if i were to spill coffee on white pants everyone notices "you spilled coffee huh" with a "oh sucks" kinda thing face. well of course i know i spilled coffee on my pants. first of all coffee is hot so i felt it penerate through my nylon white pants to my skin. it has a aroma to it, and it's liquid therefore when i take my finger and press against my leg i can feel the dampness. so i don't need the "oh! you spilled coffe on ya pants". nextime you notice a stain on someones pants or shirt- just notice how damn hot they look with the stain on.

ok so boys and gals this is what i'm trying to get too. when we look to the past which i have being doing alot lately-because im sitting on my big behind staring up to the sky. i'm finding myself in remembrance of the "bad" ugly "dark" "cold" "i'm hungry" kinda feeling memories. when really.. oh! when really i should be thinking of the good memories, the tokens i recieved the people i met- the people who i know i will never forget- and somehow in unspoken words, not even whispers i know i love them and i know they love me..well not love "love" is a powerful word to use, more like "adore". i should think of "warm" "bright" "laughter" "the touch" of these memories. life's too short too beeautiful to sulk. to cry. to pity. to stop what your doing- because you find it's not you. if you set out to change cetain aspects of who you are or how your going to obtain that "destiny" and you have to think about it- then it's not you. life is like a little story book- it looks thick, but really it isn't. we are at the ending, the ending, we're done. do we have our final conclusion? no, not until judgement day. so for now just soak it up, if you have the chance to kiss "take it" (lol) if you have the chance to dance take it. if you have the chance to do. to live. to walk. to talk. do it. do i make sense? because i'm ending at alot of periods which shows i'm stopping too much.

this doesn't make sense, well it's not supposed to loves.